Nicole Scherzinger Tells Of Battle With Bulimia
Former Pussycatdoll turned X Factor UK judge Nicole Scherzinger has admitted to suffering from Bulimia earlier on in her career.
The 34 year-old singer opened up about her battle with the eating disorder in part of the exposing VH1 documentary: Behind The Music.
In the documentary, Nicole discusses her time spent in girl band The Pussycatdolls, revealing she not only battled with bulimia, but also self-harming problems whilst in the band.
Speaking of the emotional time, Nicole said: “I just hate myself. I really was so disgusted with myself and so embarrassed. I felt so alone. I was in a group, and I never felt so alone in my life.”
Expanding on the battles she faced, Nicole admitted to suffering from the disorder for several years: “I did it every day for, like, years. Every time I had a second to be alone, I was doing something to myself. You get, blisters on your hands or scars on your hands, and I’d try to hide those. I think the girls could tell.”
Whilst surrounded by her other band mates, who had suspicions of her troubles, Nicole confessed to not being able to confront anyone about the eating disorder, which stemmed from her struggles to deal with fame and being in the media spotlight. “It’s embarrassing. I never spoke about it. Like I said, I never want to play a victim, and I never wanted my family to hear about things from me because I think it would break their heart.”
After leaving the band two years, ago Nicole had put all her attention into writing and recording solo music, which she agrees has been her savior: “The music is what saved me. It’s the only thing that I can trust.”
Now with a successful solo career, finding love with racing car driver Lewis Hamilton, and landing the role on the biggest TV show in the UK, Nicole has grown to feel happy and content, placing her demons in the past.
Article By Victoria Beckett